Not Ready To Feast With Jesus and Not Ready For Jesus To Die – A Maundy Thursday Reflection

Tonight I will attend the Maundy Thursday service at our church, Presbyterian Community Church of the Rockies where I will help my husband (the awesome pastor) serve communion to our congregation.  I usually embrace Holy Week services.  I usually look forward to celebrating communion on the night we remember Jesus serving his disciples the Passover meal.  Usually…but not this year.  This year I feel empty.  This year I don’t want to think about Jesus dying and I don’t want to remember his last meal with his peeps.

To feast with Jesus tonight means that tomorrow he must die. And to be honest, I am just not ready for another death.  I’ve had enough! It all began in August when we had two dearly loved members of our congregation die on the same day…followed by one after another after another the following months. I know as a Christian we celebrate…